this is my brain on blog

oooOOOooo so i might be addicted to blogging. i used to write in a blog all the time and this may be a resurgence! there is somehing so amazing about being able to just write and write and write ans dispel/develop thoughts. .. nice way to purge without having to worry about boring or entertaining people with your life. i wrote a blog a few years ago about how blogging is like being a tree in a deserted forest with no one around to care how you grow or what space you take up. conversation is like being a tree in a city park - gotta stay in your space and keep your branches/topics limited to socially and conversationally appropriate. dont get me wrong - i love people, convos, and city parks but it is just so cleansing to be able to rant. this blog is for me and im not going to be concerned about making it entertaining or even sequentially sensical. this is my brain on blog!! love that cuz it's so true. ive got some ideas for some changes and goals, but i dont want them to lose power by even writing abot them- i dont want the satisfaction of subconciously giving myself lame props for just writing about an idea. i need to take action! god this is making SO much sense to me at the moment! i've been living my life for a future that isnt promised - makin it about the destination and not the journey!!!! got to got to got to change the proverbial film shot to a different scene and that scene is here in tampa, here in my freedom, my head, my happiness. that is the only way to truly offer yourself to others as purely appreciative of their minds and unrestricted by false desires! a lot that ive done for the past few years has been either for an end goal, or careful so as not to disrupt that end goal. alright. that's noted and i'll have to refer back to this understanding in order to incorporate it into a second to second concious and kind flow. imma just do me while loving you... loving you truly by loving me fully.... what does love mean if it tempers your soul??!! so important to protect myself from my desires and goals for other people... and also to protect other people from me feeling it necessary to pressure goals and desires. dang... it's just so hard to live it!!! hmmmm. now off to bed cuz i gots me some hot yoga flow at 8am!!! yummmmm ps Orchestra Baobab is awesome.